No Other Way
I am thankful-
for decisions I didn’t get to make…
dreams that fell through-
love lost.
I am thankful-
for all the things that went wrong.
The turns in my life that cut me to pieces-
the long journey back to making myself whole.
I am thankful-
for almost falling into the abyss
Being pulled back against my will-
almost angry that I survived.
I am thankful that I couldn’t imagine
such happiness
because it is sweeter now
that I doubted it with such intensity.
It is easy to be thankful for beauty.
Who would have ever thought I would be so thankful for the very worst things?
The missed chances, defeat, dark places I dare not revisit.
The outcomes I fought with all my might to change-
to bend-
to make what I thought I needed.
But nothing worked.
I lost those battles over and over.
For that I am most thankful.
There was no other way. I know that now.
I found myself again. It’s been a long time.
I am here. Right where I am supposed to be.
And in ways I could never have imagined…
I am thankful.
I have featured this painting before--It is "Rebirth" by Duy Huynh, a local artist. This painting has always held special meaning for me-as does a lot of his other work. Please check out more of his work here: http://larkandkey.com/
17 comments:
It hasn't always been this way for me but I now believe that without gratitude or thankfulness it can be very difficult to move forward.
I believe that every event, good & bad, has something to teach us about ourselves.
I am so happy that your are in a peaceful place right now!
Thank you. i needed to read this today.
wonderful when things not working out the way we think we want them to, turns out to be just how we needed it to be;)
as always beautifully done my friend.
That was quite beautiful.
Yes! Great post.
Kim, that was beautiful...I'm so thankful you made it through all the tough times and into Shea's life...and ours too!!! I think God has good things in store for you and Shea.
Thanks for sharing.. You have made my day brighter.
thank you for this.. very inspiring!
without having tasted bitterness... how can one REALLY know sweetness?
excellent prose... as always.
write on...
The suitcase in the painting. I remember! Beautiful symbolism paired with this poignant piece of writing. It says so much.
You could have taken the words right out of my mouth, although you said so much better than I would have, so simply, so beautifully... I am in exactly the same place - unexpectedly grateful for the pain, for the despair, for dreams unfulfilled, because now I have dreams far grander than I ever hoped to have, I believe that I am deserving of extraordinarily good things and I sit here reaching out to them, catching them as they float by... Thank you....!
im still waiting to be thankful but hoping that it wont be much longer ... things can only get better im wishing it will be sooner ... and hoping i get to look here again and say yes me too :)
....and I am thankful that you wrote this, very nice.
I needed this so badly today...I am at the point where all I hope for is falling through..all the things I think I need are no where in sight...thank you..I pray I can say this on the other side...
Amazing...
So beautiful and *so* true, Kim - thank you.
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