"There's a bit of magic in everything, and some loss to even things out." -Lou Reed

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

No Other Way

I am thankful-
for decisions I didn’t get to make…
dreams that fell through-
love lost.

I am thankful-
for all the things that went wrong.
The turns in my life that cut me to pieces-
the long journey back to making myself whole.

I am thankful-
for almost falling into the abyss
Being pulled back against my will-
almost angry that I survived.

I am thankful that I couldn’t imagine
such happiness
because it is sweeter now
that I doubted it with such intensity.

It is easy to be thankful for beauty.
Who would have ever thought I would be so thankful for the very worst things?
The missed chances, defeat, dark places I dare not revisit.

The outcomes I fought with all my might to change-
to bend-
to make what I thought I needed.

But nothing worked.
I lost those battles over and over.

For that I am most thankful.

There was no other way. I know that now.
I found myself again. It’s been a long time.
I am here. Right where I am supposed to be.

And in ways I could never have imagined…

I am thankful.

I have featured this painting before--It is "Rebirth" by Duy Huynh, a local artist. This painting has always held special meaning for me-as does a lot of his other work. Please check out more of his work here: http://larkandkey.com/


Katherine February 24, 2010 at 11:47 PM  

It hasn't always been this way for me but I now believe that without gratitude or thankfulness it can be very difficult to move forward.
I believe that every event, good & bad, has something to teach us about ourselves.
I am so happy that your are in a peaceful place right now!

Laura February 24, 2010 at 11:50 PM  

Thank you. i needed to read this today.

Anonymous,  February 25, 2010 at 12:39 AM  

wonderful when things not working out the way we think we want them to, turns out to be just how we needed it to be;)

as always beautifully done my friend.

Mona February 25, 2010 at 8:54 AM  

Kim, that was beautiful...I'm so thankful you made it through all the tough times and into Shea's life...and ours too!!! I think God has good things in store for you and Shea.

..SOCIAL BUTTERFLY.. February 25, 2010 at 5:42 PM  

Thanks for sharing.. You have made my day brighter.

i N a February 25, 2010 at 9:36 PM  

thank you for this.. very inspiring!

Michelle February 26, 2010 at 12:19 PM  

without having tasted bitterness... how can one REALLY know sweetness?

excellent prose... as always.

write on...

Angella Lister February 26, 2010 at 2:28 PM  

The suitcase in the painting. I remember! Beautiful symbolism paired with this poignant piece of writing. It says so much.

PrincessKate February 26, 2010 at 9:41 PM  

You could have taken the words right out of my mouth, although you said so much better than I would have, so simply, so beautifully... I am in exactly the same place - unexpectedly grateful for the pain, for the despair, for dreams unfulfilled, because now I have dreams far grander than I ever hoped to have, I believe that I am deserving of extraordinarily good things and I sit here reaching out to them, catching them as they float by... Thank you....!

Jaynie Martin February 27, 2010 at 6:26 AM  

im still waiting to be thankful but hoping that it wont be much longer ... things can only get better im wishing it will be sooner ... and hoping i get to look here again and say yes me too :)

Reggie February 28, 2010 at 10:06 AM  

....and I am thankful that you wrote this, very nice.

Newly and Forever, Tamantha March 1, 2010 at 10:20 AM  

I needed this so badly today...I am at the point where all I hope for is falling through..all the things I think I need are no where in sight...thank you..I pray I can say this on the other side...

Feronia March 2, 2010 at 10:11 PM  

So beautiful and *so* true, Kim - thank you.

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